Me right now

The obvious
Name: Cristina
Age: 16
Height: 1.67
Weight: 47 kgs
Favorite color: Black and blue
Identity: fuck you!

Current
Song: scars-papa roach
Band: Nightwish
Food: Oreos and blood
Movie: The butterfly effect
Tv show: Dawson's creek, that 70's show, summerland, the o.c., one tree hill
Place: Somewhere inside myself
Girl: Sam (the ring), tinkerbell
Boy: Peter Pan
Love: ...
Hate: No one
Husband: PINZIIII!!!!
Quote: All human wisdom is contained in this two words: WAIT and HOPE
Feeling
Complicated !

Lonely Girl

I can remember the very first time I cried, how I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside. All of my memories good and bad that's passed, didn't take the time to realize...I'm staring at the cracks in the wall 'cause I'm waiting for it all to come to an end. Still I curl up right under the bed 'cause it's taking over my head, all over again.

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find.
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star.
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore.
Do you even know what you have?
...

Lying awake watching the sunlight, how the birds will sing as I count the rings around my eyes. Constantly pushing the world I know aside, I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to try. I'm looking for a way to become the person I dreamt up when I was 13 but nothing is ever enough, no it aint enough.

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still trying to find.
A rising dream or a falling star?
I have all these dreams...
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore.
Do you even know what you have?
No.

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me 'cause I'm wondering how you really feel.
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you 'cause I'm just trying to make all my dreams come true.
But it seems that I'm standing here, heading towards the boulevard of broken dreams.

...something...

When life gets hard, I mean really ahrd,
When you feel like you don't wanna move on,
When you want to stop...freeze,
When you feel like you wanna go back,
Get stuck in a moment and don't wanna get out of it,
When you want a moment, a special moment to last forever,
When youre gone and don't wanna come back,
And life gets hard,
Things get really hard,
Remember...if you could ride that wave, then nothing can be that hard.
Coming back is one of the hardest things to do, I mean, when you've been away from everything, from reality, when you've been happy and managed to forget about everything, it's hard, really hard to come back. It feels like you've left something of yours behind, and you just wanna go back, or turn back time.
It's hard to understand, but nothing lasts forever, no matter how bad we want it to. That's our punishment, good things don't last much, and we're doomed to come back...to live again.

"Aprendi a quitarle al tiempo los segundos
Tu me hiciste ver el cielo mas profundo..."
"Se que no regresaras, lo que nos paso no repetirá jamás
Mil años no em alcanzarán para borrarte y olvidar..."
"Tal vez haya vivido tanto, en tan poco y tan corto tiempo, que no se ni que idioma hablo..."

Finding yourself is hard...but at lest you've got the memories right???

AMAZONAS 2004 TOP 30

1. El mejor amigo del hombre...el que nos acompaño en todos esos momentos especiales...el PALMARI MAGIC MIX (tambien conocido como palmera mix o malpari magic mix)
2. Nuestro segundo acompañante durante la excursión...el morral de asalto...o atraco a mano armada.
3. Chalecos POLO??...Marica echate aguita!
4. Nos vamos con PACHO? No?...Entonces con SANCHO?...O con JUANCHO?
5. Tengo efecto lanchifero... :s
6. Ya merito llegamooooos??? NOOO...te voy a botar de la lancha y te vas a tener que ir montando anaconda
7. He pescado un pescado..pero es el mismo que pesque hace un rato! :s
8. George...saaaaaaaacate el perro sacate el perro(8)
9. Corriente fría...corriente caliente...nah! eso fue George que se meo!
10. Pasenme la pita que no he terminado de armar mi cambuche!!
11. Hey...me pasan la coca y la bareta xfa?!
12. El CURUPIRA
13. El eficaz desodorante de Pipe
14. Barro y arena= un spa en la mitad de la selva
15. Niñas que pena pero no hay caimanes...lo sentimos...AHHH??? ke me importa me kiero ir a dormir!!
16. Pipe...una foto mirando al horizonte!
17. "Chiks...mañana las de canopy a las 7 de la mañana no espero a nadie porque ayer fui condescendiente y espere dos minutooos"
18. Los cuentos y chistes de Huiti
19. Voy a sacar el shabon y el jampu pa bañarme
20. Tito te lucen esos shorts...son de vieja?
21. Nos hundimooos nos hundimos pasame la bomba de achiqueeee!
22. Mi esposa se llama Derika con D y K a mucho honor!
23. Estamos avanzando en contra de la corriente...pero...un momento por que cada vez los vemos mas chiquitos?...marica si seguimos asi vamos a tener que sacar pasaporte boliviano!
24. Tito es un duro bailando Samba ...y Jorge...es un duro pal vallenato
25. Nosotras con estomago de chulo como putas nos vamos a intoxicar?!
26. Abel...y donde dejaste a Caín?
27. Los 2 records del Marymount que batimos...Ajíes y Canopy!!!!
28. Vamos a dormir en la maSloca
29. Haber estado en mas de 2 países al tiempo...(haber tenido la oportunidad de mear en peru...xD)
30. La perdida de los pasabordos...gracias lila!!!...lo siento malu...yo se que queria quedarte.
Y por ultimo...la forma en ke gorgeous me robo el corazon....xD!!! jajajajaja
Pero no podemos olvidar los extras...
31. El raton volador de Huiti
32. El nadado de perro de lila y yo
33. Marta con poncho...yo se que quieres volar...y si le adicionamos la linterna...sabemos que marta quiere ser una luciernaga.
34. Los deliciosos...pero exquisitos jugos de la reserva (Alguien tiene clight....XFAVOOOOOR!)
35. La tibieza y las picaduras de mosco...muy seguido se oia...si me quieres no me toques. (y claro La Romero "alguien quiere una ruanita? un saquito? una cobijita?)

A LA PIM PIM...PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIM!
A LA PON PON...POOOOOOOON!
COMO ESTUVO AMAZONAAAAAS??
CHEVERE COMO UN PIM PON UUHHH!!!
CHEVERE COMO UN PIM PON UUHHH!!!

COLEGIO SANTAMARIA PROMOCION 2006+BLUEFIELDS+AMAZONAS 2004+PALMARÍ= DEL CARAJO...SIMPLEMENTE INCREIBLE!!!! GRACIAS A TODAS POR HACER DE ESTA EXCURSION ALGO TAN "MARAVILLOSO".

It's just you and the universe judging each other. It's a fight and you finally belong. Got a shiner now and it's more than a battle scar. It's such a good story to tell...at lunch time such a good good story to tell. You bully, you break, you fake, you smoke, you toke, you want, you flaunt, you hit it and you're in it and it's spinning. And it's wild. We never thought that we'd get caught up, stuck in the teenage waste. We're counting the stars, we're gonna go far...It's youn and me in the open air, It's truth or dare but we don't care...We're counting the stars, we're not very far...as we EXPLODE!

"one"

"One"

We are the ones
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours It’s in our hands

We’re the tear in your eyes
We’re the blood in your veins
We’re the feet of your heart
We’re the sweat on your face
We’re the ones that you chased
We’re the promise that you made
We’re the voice inside your head
We’re the lies that you said
We’re the kids that you pushed away

We are…
We are the ones
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It’s in our hands
We are one

We’re the pride of your lives
We’re the light shining deep in your eyes
We’re the choice that you made
We’re the smile on your face when you sleep at night
We’re the best thing you had
But you left us behind
We’re the kids that you pushed away

We are…
We are the ones
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It’s in our hands
We are one

We’re the pain that you feel
We’re the scars that don’t heal
We’re the tear in your eyes
We’re the reason you cry
We’re the voice inside your head
We’re the lies that you said
We’re the best thing you had but you pushed us away

We are the ones
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It’s in our hands
We are one

We are the ones
The ones forgotten
And we are Nothing to lose
Together we stand up tall
We are one

-SimplePlan-

...?...??...???

I don't act the same every day
Neither should my lip gloss
Change is good
So is super-shine & iridescence
So is a tropical twist of flavor
I can roll with it
I am a girl.

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Happy Halloween!!!

Halloween Humor

Q. What do goblins and ghosts drink when theyre hot and thirsty?
A. Ghoul-Aid

Q. What's the mummie's favorite kind of music?
A. Wrap

Q. What did the skeleton say to the vampire?
A. You suck!

Q. What is a ghost's favorite dessert?
A. I-Scream

Q. Who was the most famous skeleton detective?
A. Sherlock Bones

Q. What do you call two witches living together?
A. Broommates

Q. Why do ghosts like to ride elevators?
A. 'Cause it raises their spirits

Q. How did the ghost say good-bye to the vampire?
A. So long sucker!

Q. Who was the most famous french skeleton?
A. Napoleon Bone-apart

Q. Why does the cemetery have a fence aroun it?
A. 'Cause people were dying to get in

Q. What did the mother ghost said to her kids?
A. Fasten your sheetbelts

Q. What did the vampire say when he finished reading these jokes?
A. They suck!

...what's there to say...?

Everything that's left...is nothing.

Yesterday I was sitting on the roof of a tall tall building. The rain was falling softly, the wind was blowing softly too. Then the drops got thicker and the wind blew harder. But I sat on the roof contemplating the storm.
I took a deep breath and stared at the sky, trying to find the pieces of my life in it, or at least my reflection. But i saw nothing. The floor was slippery, but I didn't care, I tried to stand up, but I couldn't, I slipped and fell. I was falling from the building, like the rain was. I knew my fate, I knew what was going to happen.
Then I remembered everything that took place throughout my life, the things I said, The things I saw, The things I heard and felt. Was that it? I knew it was...but would anyone remember? Would anyone stop, think and remember? Would they go on? Would they forget and just go on? Without me? What would be left of me when everything ended? Memories? Tears? Anything?
I wondered if I would remember, if I could finish what I started, the searching, I wondered if I could find my reflections, my pieces. But then I realized it was really over, not sad, over, but perfect. Those were the longest 5 seconds of my life, but at the same time the most important. I found out what I needed to know, what's left of everything is nothing, everything comes, and then passes by. Me?...well I just passed by like everyone else, but I found out what I wanted to know, I found out who I was, I could leave happy now. The pieces were now complete and put together. 3...2...1, the ground had never felt so soft an comforting in my life. And next to me a puddle of rain, in which I saw my reflection. I knew it would dry and go away, but at least I saw it for the first time.

Frozen

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be?
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
You're so consumed on how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open
There's no point on placing the blame
And you should know i suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird
She needs to fly
Let all teh hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
...If I could melt your heart
We'd never be apart
...Give yourself to me
You hold the key

If I could melt your heart
We'd never be apart
You're frozen
An I'll go on as you get colder.

If only the blowing wind could melt my tears
And read in my eyes my hidden fears
If only fire could melt my mind and soul
My thoughts would flow and my feelings grow
If you could melt the ice covering my heart
You would know by my own words what it wants to say
If I could melt the wall of ice between us
We'd be toguether not frozen anymore.

I feel so cold but your fire isn't strong enuogh to warm me up
You're standing so far away, the heat can't reach the ice, can't warm me up.

The ice is getting thicker
It has frozen every inch of my body
It has made me as hard and cold as itself
I'm a part of it
It's my way of living
If there was fire to warm the ice up
I would melt and flow away with my way of being.

...

There are several momentes in life in which we don't know what to do or how to act. This moments freak us out, they actually leave us speachless. Our minds go completely blank, everything starts getting slower, time, slows down. We freeze, get paralyzed. Then the air gets thicker and it's har to catch it, we are left breathless. All sort of thoughts start crossing our head. We feel confused but remain silent, frozen. Then everything gets blurry, we lose our hearing, we just focus on those thoughts crossing our minds. We feel cold and distant. We don't know what's happening, we're unconscious. Then we realize it and we come to our senses again. It all happens so fast. It turns out that, in that farction of a second, we were inside ourselves, inside our own world, where nobody else goes to, where no other voice can be heard but the one of our own deep thoughts.

Private conversation

Sometimes, when things start getting weird, when the situation is really uncomfrotable, the best thing to do is to go away, step aside and look at everything from another perspective, see how things look like from the outside. If you're not in the situation, you can see it from the outside, maybe it will look different than the way it looks from the inside, and you will know why it is strange or why it feels bad. Other options??? Yes...maybe you can look in a different direction...find something different, a different situation...and then compare. Maybe you will feel different...or vene better.
Afueeeeraaaa(8)
Time has come for me to open the door and step outside of the room, maybe to stand in the hallway, to wai for another door to open, or may to wait for that same door to open again in a different way.
THINK DIFFERENT!! FEEL DIFFERENT!! =>Be different!
Not to worry...thing will get better...or at least I know they can't get any worse.
PATIENCE my friends...It's all about breathing!!
Dazed Amused Amazed Confused !!!!
JUST BREATHE
Gotta fall asleep. Maybe if I dream I'll go away from here...from THIS!!
Gotta find someone new(8)...Someplace different! New opportunities!! YEAH!! Sounds great!
Not to worry...its all about me...that's whi I goes in capital letter...:p
The ones who don't care...well it's not about them...step aside please!
Wow!...it all came out...outside better than inside...yes!!! It's a FACT!!
Wel...wait...it depends. Inside the situation...Where's the door...please PLEASE take me to the door so I can walk trhough it!! But...inside MYSELF...where's the key? I'll lock the door. DO NOT DISTURB!...unconscious people inside.
Tur the volume up uP UP!!! Don't wanna listen to you...don't wanna listen to anybody.
I'm having a private conversation...only me and my innervoice talking.
NO PEEKING!!!!!!!!